B)Blind Assassin by Margaret Atwood
I have meant to read "Blind Assassin" by Margaret Atwood for so long. I still haven't read it. I'm afraid to make a promise, vow or resolution to read it. The resolution is sure to get broken. If I act nonchalant, I might read this book in the summer by lucky chance. Of course, I don't want to live my life by a lucky chance. It's so sad for very good books to become a part of my procrastination. They suffer the consequences of my way of thinking. "Tomorrow is another day." Remember Scarlett O'hara would say those words whenever she met an unpleasant circumstance in her life?
Now I'm on a trail of poignant thoughts. My not reading Blind Assassin is part of a deeper problem. It's not just about a book. It's about a lack of self discipline in every part of my life. I am now revealing a part of my character, a character flaw. How do I become a disciplined person? I can't slap my face. I can't twist my arm. After all, I'm not a believer in self flagellation. By the way, Margaret Atwood is one of my favorite authors. She is why I love Canada. I have enjoyed two or three of her books: Eat Cake and Cat's Eye.
As I write I am beginning to see the light. I need to set goals. If I am going to become better disciplined, I need to have specific goals. I need to write these goals down. It won't help if they're just marching around in the shadows of my mind. As a matter of fact, there is a weekly meme I try to do every week. This meme helps me because I have to write down the book I just finished, the current book I'm reading. Lastly, I have to write down the next book. This last book is the one I hope to read if nothing falls apart in my part of the book world during my planning stage.
If you look over at my sidebar on the blog, you can see I'm trying. I'm really trying to discipline myself. It's a small beginning.
